The past few weeks I have begun to get tired and weak. I told myself I was just tired from all my classes and maybe I was not getting enough sleep, but today I was proven wrong.
Today I went to all my classes like normal, but something was different. It seemed like I was in a fog and there was no way I was able to concentrate. In my Spanish class I had to take a quiz I forgot was today, and because I was so tired and I could not think, I did not do so well on it. Knowing that I could not think, I felt like all the work I put into my school was wasted, I finally had to face reality; mom was right, again.
These past few weeks my mom has been telling me to eat carbs. She told me they were my energy and I needed them every day, but I didn’t want to believe her. So even though I would tell my mom I would start eating carbs, I never really did. I felt I was fine without them and even though I was working out, I didn’t need them. I can tell you now, I was terribly wrong about that one.
I have learned that I am still scared of carbs. I know they aren’t bad for me, but my mind still tells me to stay away. I knew I was doing wrong, but I still persisted to do things my way.
By trying to do things my way, I almost lost a friend, I failed a test, I read a bunch of books that I can’t remember what they said, I have become exhausted, and whenever I think about moving, I dread it.
That is not how I want to live my life. I don’t want to dread my next move or fail another test. I want to have energy and be able to remember all the things I worked so hard to accomplish. I want to be a shining star and I want to be completely free from my fears. I want to close that door Satan has his foot in and lock him out. I want to cover every area of my life so I can make sure I keep Him out. I am covered by the Blood of the Lamb and I am a blessed child of God!!