When we focus on the negative self-defeating aspects in our lives, we tend to feel more pain and sorrow. We know we have God, but don’t feel like we can turn to him because he is not physically here as a friend or a parent might be.
We all strive to build relationships in our lives, but when we feel we have failed; we lose our self-esteem, like we can never be good enough. I can personally tell whoever has felt this is wrong. We are all special and we are all good enough. God loves us and though he may not be here physically, he is still in our heart and in the air.
People hurt people because we are all still human, but that does not mean we are worthless and that we are a mess ups. God works in mysterious ways and he will not let us down. The pain we feel when we are alone is the pain that Satan is trying to place upon us. The last thing God wants us to feel is pain, but sometimes we have to feel that pain so we can learn to rely on God.
A lot of times we get so caught up in the world that we forget God. We turn to the world for satisfaction, but when things go wrong, we blame God. Have you ever begged God to save you from a horrible situation, but when he saved you and life was good, you pushed him aside until things get bad again? I have done that, and it hurts to admit it, but I know it’s true.
I claim to be a Christian, but I know a lot of the time I don’t show it. What does that do to my testimony? How am I supposed to share about Christ when my life does not reflect him?
It has taken me a long time to figure out that I am not who I should be. I tried so hard to make the flesh feel good and make myself seem important to others, that when I thought about God, I would feel so much shame. I knew I was doing wrong, but at the time I did not want to admit it. I tried to suppress the pain until I could not suppress it any longer. I know now that I have not been living to my greatest potential, but have been settling because I thought unless I did I would be considered a loser. I thought I would not be able to make friends and that I would always be considered the immature, young looking college student, but now I realize now that I was the one feeding those lies to myself. I wanted to fit in so bad, I let my guard down, and Satan took full advantage. Even though I may have a few wounds in my heart right now, God is slowly healing them. I realize God never left me, but was waiting for me to come back to him so that I could heal and work towards the amazing plan that he has laid out for me.
Don’t let the lies take control of your life because that is what Satan want, but let God’s truth reign in your heart and mind. God loves you more than you will ever know and he does not like to see you hurting, but wants to help you heal and grow in him. He has a wonderful plan for you, but you have to be the one to accept it and to accept him.