I have seen today how I have been scared to face my last and final fear.

The past few weeks I have begun to get tired and weak. I told myself I was just tired from all my classes and maybe I was not getting enough sleep, but today I was proven wrong.

          Today I went to all my classes like normal, but something was different. It seemed like I was in a fog and there was no way I was able to concentrate. In my Spanish class I had to take a quiz I forgot was today, and because I was so tired and I could not think, I did not do so well on it. Knowing that I could not think, I felt like all the work I put into my school was wasted, I finally had to face reality; mom was right, again.

          These past few weeks my mom has been telling me to eat carbs. She told me they were my energy and I needed them every day, but I didn’t want to believe her. So even though I would tell my mom I would start eating carbs, I never really did. I felt I was fine without them and even though I was working out, I didn’t need them. I can tell you now, I was terribly wrong about that one.

          I have learned that I am still scared of carbs. I know they aren’t bad for me, but my mind still tells me to stay away. I knew I was doing wrong, but I still persisted to do things my way.

           By trying to do things my way, I almost lost a friend, I failed a test, I read a bunch of books that I can’t remember what they said, I have become exhausted, and whenever I think about moving, I dread it.

          That is not how I want to live my life. I don’t want to dread my next move or fail another test. I want to have energy and be able to remember all the things I worked so hard to accomplish. I want to be a shining star and I want to be completely free from my fears. I want to close that door Satan has his foot in and lock him out. I want to cover every area of my life so I can make sure I keep Him out. I am covered by the Blood of the Lamb and I am a blessed child of God!!


9/1/2011 05:01:37 am

Knowing the future, and being ready for it, will help you face your fears. Jesus told us to understand prophetic events (Matthew 24:15). In Luke 21, He described signs that would precede His coming, and He delivered this admonition: "So you also, when you see these things happening, know that the kingdom of God is near. Assuredly, I say to you, this generation will by no means pass away till all things take place. Heaven and earth will pass away, but My words will by no means pass away" (Luke 21:31–33). Jesus said that we should be alert to prophetic events so that we will know that the kingdom of God is near. He did not say, "so that we can guess that the kingdom of God is near."

Jesus goes on to explain how we can face our fears by understanding what will come: "But take heed to yourselves, lest your hearts be weighed down with carousing, drunkenness, and cares of this life, and that Day come on you unexpectedly. For it will come as a snare on all those who dwell on the face of the whole earth. Watch therefore, and pray always that you may be counted worthy to escape all these things that will come to pass, and to stand before the Son of Man" 34-36


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