Well I am finally able to write a post. Finding good internet is difficult here. 
Well I have had a tough week this week. My mom went home Saturday; Which made me very sad and lonely. Then I had to move in to the school where few people speak english, and I finally started teaching and the kids keep asking me questions, but I did not know what they were saying.

Now, I do have some good news though. Saturday after my mom left for Georgia, I sat pondering by myself for four hours. I was wondering how in the world am I gonna do this. How am I going to make it here in Honduras without anyone from my family. After several hours something happened. God showed me why I am here. It could not be any clearer. God showed me that I have not been relying on Him but I have been relying on people and myself. He told me I am here so I can learn to rely on Him and Him alone. He brought me to a place were no one speaks english, my family is a thousand miles a way, and I have to make friends on my own; which I have not done in years. 

After I came to this realization, I began to see something happen in me. God gave me the strength and courage to get out of my comfort zone and face my fears. One example is the dorm. I am staying at the girls dormitory. There are tons of girls there, but very few speak english. I was so scared going in there because I was afraid I would not make friends and they would laugh at me because I could not speak spanish. 
The day I moved into the dorm, I knew I had to try and make some friends. I had to have Faith that God was going to help me and I needed Him to direct my steps. Wile I was sitting in my room, I felt the urge to go and find a group of girls. I had no idea how I was going to communicate with them, but I did what I felt I had to do; I went down and found a group of girls. 

God did a miracle when I went downstairs because when I found that group of girls, doors began to open. Those girls came to me and told me to sit down. They surrounded me with smiles on their faces. They even tried to get a bilingual to come over so they can talk to me. Those girls and I talked for 2 hours that afternoon and about an 1 or 2 that evening,, and we did not have an interpreter the whole time either. God blessed me and He showed me that all I have to do is trust, rely, and have faith in Him. He will take care of the rest. 

Now I do have to say, I am really homesick. I miss my parents and I have even had some tears. Ok, a lot of tears. I have thought, how in the world can I make it six weeks, but my mom started encouraging me, some ladies her started encouraging me, and my friends began to tell me they love me. I know I could not leave now because I got so much still to do. I have my friends to teach english to. I got students to love and help in school. I have Stephany to be a little sister to. 

I know Satan is trying to attack me by making me homesick and making me feel like I eat a lot here, but  I am going to rely on the Lord and listen to Him.  I know I am supposed to be here and I am not gonna let Satan win.



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